♫♪Myles♪♫

So again I’m taking a nice hot shower but this time in my new house and something that I’ve been thinking about for a long time struck me. It was Love. Do adults think that young adults can fall in love too? I don’t think they believe but they do. Anyways, I was thinking if people would prefer never loving or be loved than loving and hurting and loving again? To love someone you have to be loved first so they say after their hurt they rather not love again because the pain of being hurt is too much for them. They can’t stand loving someone and always being let down by that person. The pain hurts them too much that they rather not love the person instead of comforting their pain more than love. I understand that after loving someone so much and they let you down and it hurts a lot because you loved the person. It wasn’t just another person it was the person you loved and trusted.

Then there are other where they love, hurt, love and the process carry’s on but eventually always gets more love. Why? Because they have taken the chance to keep on improving on each other, they believe that their love is stronger then their hurt, they most of all forgive each other, and believe in each other. They don’t give up because they know that love is a roller coaster and you’ve got to keep on riding it, like Ronan Keating’s song “Love is a Rollercoaster”. There would be ups and downs in the relationship but the important thing is that we don’t make a big deal about it. Talk about it. You know you love the person because when you’re together you can feel a feeling in your heart telling you he/she is the one, you feel so comfortable with he/she, and you can look into the future and see yourself with he/she. You know you love the person because he/she is different from anyone you been with, he/she treats you different and you treat him/her different and you would trade every second of the day to be with that person but never trade every second that you were with the person. I always remember this phrase “I look for that one girl that sticks out from the crowd.” You change the girl to guy.

We have to understand that love isn’t perfect either. All those talk about love is perfect is all bull@%$&. Love isn’t perfect because they lovers aren’t too. We all make mistakes in our lives so don’t you think we will make mistakes in our love life too. People make a big assumption when they love the person and they have a fight that he/she isn’t the one for them or everything they promised was a lie. Sometimes it might be sometimes it may not be but the best thing to do is talk about it and make your decision after. After talking through and working things out you’ll see that it wasn’t a big thing at all. You should be able to talk to the person you love easily even just slightly easier then anyone is an achievement.

All this may sound easy to some of you to other it may sound hard. If it is hard don’t get angry at yourself or your partner. It depends on the person that’s all it is. Some personalities are harder some are easier. Trust me though it is really hard. Adults that are married still don’t get it. I don’t get it either. All I’m writing now is things that are just coming from my head. I don’t understand what I’m writing. I know that no one understands love either. That’s one word which cannot be described or understood but I know it is meant to be felt.

I guess it all comes too how you feel for the person and how you feel about yourself. You can give him/her everything you have the good and the bad. To me it’s worth it to keep on trying if I love the person even if I hurt unless it a really major thing where I or the person cheats on me/her countless time. Sure I’ll hurt but it’s worth it to give my heart to the person. I rather love then never love at all. Isn’t love, life in itself? I just don’t understand…and I’m sick of it too..

So yesterday I was taking a pleasant hot shower and suddenly the question of “What is life?” came to my head and I started to think about it for 40minutes in the hot shower. Finally, I came to a conclusion what is life it maybe wrong it maybe right that’s up to you to decide. People say life is about having fun, earning money, falling in loving and all the other things u would think about that is true but it is explained wrongly and people receive it wrongly into their brains. Life is about decisions. Decisions if u want to have love and fun or greed and depression. Every step we take in the present and past is to shape our future. Without decisions there would be no life because we always make decisions in everything we do. Like Anne Frank she made a decision which affected our future she packing the diary instead of clothes helped us understand the past if she packed clothes we would not be learning about her in school and we would know less about the past probably. Decisions were made even in the beginning of time in the Christianity when Adam and Eve were in the Garden of Eden they had a choice to obey and not eat the apple but they did and that shaped our future and as Christians say caused man to sin from that time onwards. Please read more about Adam and Eve too fully understand the decision they made, I explained it just very briefly only. Anyways, Hitler made the Jews lives a living hell because of his decision he made. His decision to destroy all the Jews, destroy their lives, their families, and their future. How many lives would have been saved if the U.S. made a decision to open up their borders to the Jews?

Some people also say they wish they could erase the past or start their lives over again because of what they did in the past, their decisions they made. Starting over isn’t the answer the answer is forgetting the past and moving on. Making sure we don’t make the same mistakes now to repeat the past. The past isn’t as important as the future and the future isn’t as important as the present because it shapes our future. If u don’t want to remember or want people to remember how you were in the past then prove to them now that u have changed instead. It’s never too late to change but it’s too late to change the past. If you study hard now later in life you would be able to get a good job. Two things are happening in that sentence one your decision for what u want in your life later and the decision to study hard now(present) to get a good job later(future). They are all connected and they are the answer to life.

Enjoying ourselves, love, hate, war, peace, murder and so many more is life but is only caused by our decisions. So it’s up to us if we want happiness or depression. We can change what we want anytime because it our decision. For young adults (I hate the word kids) we say “It’s my life I can do whatever I want” that is not entirely true because we haven’t experienced everything our parents, teachers, or adults have so we cannot see the consequences we make in our decisions. Adults are here too advice us to help us understand. Nobody can force you to do anything in our lives but advice us to not make mistakes which will affect our future. Our final decision is ours because decisions rule our lives and if people make all of the decisions for us it won’t be our life anymore but theirs. Be careful though not all advice is good or correct. That’s why the final decision is yours and yours alone but we should try to be less stubborn and listen to those who we trust and give us advice that makes sense to us. Like I said there are all connected past, present, future, and decisions make life. Past, parents, teachers, and adults advising us on their past experience. Present, the decision we make from the advices we get and our own thoughts. Future, the decision we make in the past shaped our future. Decisions, is what we did in the past, present, and future. Life is what we make it and how we make it is through decisions.

Please feel free to comment on your thoughts and your questions. What u disagree with and agree with. Thanks